I just finished a book written by James Fallon, entitled “The Psychopath Inside” after seeing the author on The View and I was intrigued. His recently published book, subtitled “A Neuroscientist’s Personal Journey into the Dark Side of the Brain” reached out and grabbed my morbid interest. I justified the expense to research and indeed, the detailed explanations of personality disorders, how the brain information can be used to interpret PET scans, CT scans and MRIs to aide in dissemination of how the brain works, fires, interacts, reacts, and the actual knowledge that there are so many variations of psychopath, sociopath, depression, manic, bipolar and personality disorders, it is a mystery/thriller writers’ paradise. I write thrillers, mystery, women’s fiction and love the aspect of the dark side. I love the show Dexter while my husband and sons at times, look at me with genuine concern. Concern for me, them? Who knows. I assume that they think as long as I write, they are probably safe. :D. Within the pages of books such as these, I often attain ideas for my protagonist; then sometimes I find ways to hone my character and through his or her darkness, tell his or her story in such way that readers cannot help but to feel something other than fear and/or disgust for them, but sympathy. My role, I believe, is to show the human side of the darkness, although to some of these characters, I find it damn near impossible.
The characters in my imagination are very real to me; their past history just as much a part of my as my own history. I know that may sound odd, but in my own way, keeps me sane and in love with the voices in my head. One thing that I am struggling with at the moment is trying to edit a completed work all the while the newest story is constantly nagging at me. These characters vying for attention and nagging for their lives to become real through my fingers and onto the computer screen. However, it is wonderful having these story lines active in my head, now, I just have to find the love of editing. I do have a request and trying to print out the proposal today for delivery tomorrow. Then, and only then, can I enjoy the sunset over the death flies in my mind. The Sociopaths and psychopaths never give up, they are a tenacious lot; always there for me and agents are not so understanding. Especially in the beginning.
So my friends, a prayer if you pray, wish if you see a falling star and strap on your seat-belts, you’re in for a hell-of-a-ride.
See you on the bookshelves!
Kolin Mofield
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